Time of _'s love while waking up in dream only of the true love after the passion

Time of _'s love while waking up in dream only of the true love after the passion

When Xiu called for me, joyful in tone. Say finally, she can't help sobing. She says: "Though know that always walks in some detours unavoidably in life, the one that has not thought of is, while waking up in illusion, he of the true love is still here
Wait by the body. I am really too lucky. "
That silly and silly boy
In 1699, I graduated from university from Beijing one.

Though I want to stay in Beijing very much, have finally to be low-spirited to get back to the hometown, a TV station in the city becomes a reporter.
My work can be done in an expert way, the leader values me very much too. However, I do not always think I will stay in this city all one's life, I have been looking for the chance to Beijing.
Had the period of time, put out a night news program in the platform, under my care. Finish the programs each time, has all already reached late into the night. Live my home though not far,because it passes by one of long bank of the river side roads without street lamps to want, father comes to meet me every day. One day, father is ill, I have to go home by oneself. When it is difficult to make that I stand at the front door facing toward the boundless dim light of nighting, a sound came suddenly in one's ear: "Yu Xiu, my home lives with your home not far, let's go together. " Saw suddenly later, it was Wang Lei of the thematic department originally. Looking at the boundless dim light of night, I nod. On the way, Wang Lei talks about Duan Zi in their department, let me continue laughing. This of mine just finds he is actually a very interesting person. It is my family, he says: "Later, let me send you home every day. "
Hereafter, while finishing the program every night, I see Wang Lei standing at the front door waiting for me. We smile at each other knowingly, go home together. His news is done very well, it is a generally acknowledged reporter with one's own idea in the platform, early over one year than I.
One day, I learn unintentionally when chatting, Wang Lei lives in the western suburb with the colleague, try to go south by driving the chariot north with my family. My heart moves. In the evening, when we go home together, I ask him: "How do you deceive me and say you live in that direction in my home? " I feel he blushes. He says: "I'm afraid you do not allow me to send off. " What is meant I certainly know this. I am reticent, do not know what is to be done. I will not accept him at that time, but I can't bear to refuse him. That day, we were all a bit awkward.
Later, the flood took place in some areas of the hometown, sent several reporters including Wang Lei and me to rush towards the forefront of flood-fighting and interview in the platform. Once, while shooting a lens on a small mound, I slip under unexpected foot, have fallen into water. One wave call, I go out roll well far. At that time when water is drowned, I missed me.
Suddenly, one big hand of force catch hold of I, haul out me the surface of water only. Subsequently, I have chocked several saliva, have lost consciousness. While waking up, I am lying on the bed in the hostel, it is Wang Lei's anxious face at the moment. See I wake up, he heaves a sigh of relief long. It is learnt that it is Wang Lei that has rescued me, I am hot.
We are in love. He is very kind to me, I have had deep attachment on he gradually. He is on business that there is once, the figure not known well at the place where familiar with, I suddenly felt that had lost one's mind. In the evening, he calls, we have had a chat for more than two hours. Finally, he says in the telephone: "Beautiful, let's get married, I always think that can not catch you. " I am reticent. I like him, but I do not really want to fasten oneself in a family so early. For a good while, I say: "You know I have been wanting to go to Beijing to develop all the time. " "We can go together! " He says eagerly. I say: "Let's let me think it over. "
That U.S.A. illusion
One day, I went to a large-scale company to interview, found unexpectedly a line manager of this company was He Wen, classmate of my university. He Wen had courted me those years, was refused by me. Old classmates meet again many years later, we are all very excited.
A few days later, He Wen invites me to go out to have a meal. When I appear in front of him, I see he gets an idea. During the feast, he tells me that he is handling the visa to U.S.A., if it is smooth, perhaps will go to U.S.A. several months later. He still tells me, he has talked about several loves, but nobody can really move his heart.
It is learnt that I want to go to Beijing, he says: "Beijingers all go to New York, it would be better to go to U.S.A. directly. Chinese media of U.S.A. needs people equally. " I listen to, shake in the heart, seem to suddenly see the light. Wang Lei and I say after coming back, but he is disapproving. Feel suddenly I,Lei Wang as where document pathbreaker's spirit.
Later on He Wen and I met several times again, but just talk of everything under the sun easily.
Suddenly one day, He Wen went to the platform to look for me, told me that his visa came down excitedly, he wants to invite me to dinner to celebrate alone.
That is candle light dinner once. In the candle light of flickering, he see me saying only with unexpected eyes: "Let's get married! You can get the marriage visa, go to U.S.A. to develop if has got married. " I am extremely haphazard, have baffled excitement of a silk, another silk is guilty and uneasy. I say I want to think about it.
Having pillaged me successfully finally in Vanity, I promised He Wen.
I wonder how to open one's mouth to Wang Lei. Several days after hesitating well, send it to me on the way home him, I said difficultly at last: "Let's say good-bye, we are improper. " He is worried: "Are not you joking? " I say fast: "It is true, as soon as I am going to marry, I go to U.S.A. after getting married. Forgive me, I really want to go to U.S.A.. Return all one's life under owing your feeling. " Wang Lei asks sadly: "Go to U.S.A. more importantly than the emotion? " I shed tears and remain silent quietly. He has seen me for quite a while, says finally: "Since it is so, I have to give up. Just, this city can let me yearn for. "
He Wen went to U.S.A. in one month after marriage. Wang Lei resigned after I got married, it is said he went to Beijing. Empty in my heart.
Later one day, I found oneself pregnant. I send the E-mail to He Wen, he is very glad, ask me to go through the relevant visas formalities as soon as possible.
I have not expected I will be refused to sign. Very startled too after He Wen hears, he asks me not to worry, however, I can not recognize self-confidently from his voice. I say sputteringly: "Can not sign the card, why do I get married? "
The child grows up in the stomach day by day, I send the E-mail to He Wen everyday. But one day, he was missing suddenly, the E-mail did not go back, the telephone was not answered. Feeling that I really fall down some day. Where do I go to look for him? I do not believe that man swearing an oath in all solemnity to me will pay no attention to me originally, especially I am still cherishing his child. However, several months passed by, He Wen does not still have with appearing in the telephone on the net, I have to believe the fact abandoned.
Because out of breath makes a psychological attack, my premature delivery, it is a girl.
I think I feels too shamed and stays the hometown, then is bringing daughter to Wuhan to fight. As to He Wen, I have not missed, that only wanted to do is to find him and divorce.
When the child is half a years old, I phone He Wen again, the woman who is very young of a sound answered the call. Confirm that is after He Wen's home telephone, I ask her to pass on him: His wife wants to let him divorce, otherwise the court sees.
The formality of divorce has been done well very smoothly. He Wen agrees to give the child to me, I have not wanted him the cost of maintenance of one fen. After the procedure is finished, I phone very calmly to ask him, does not love me, why marry me. He signs and says: "In fact I am who loves you, just I love oneself even more. While going to the college, you have refused me, I thought I have become the target who classmates laugh at, in a very long time, I am not self-confident, even if the undertaking succeeded, I think too that there are a pair of eyes that are disdaining me, that is your eyes. So, after running into you again, I want to only get you, I can get my lost self-respect back. But that anxious tone without card of registering of yours, especially that sentence ' can not sign the card, I get married what does it do ', like pitch into my heart the awl, let me feel you do not love me. I hate your vanity on one hand, hate one's own incapability on the other hand. So, I am missing, until cohabitting with a woman. Excuse me I. "
The favourite has never left slightly
The child has grown up gradually, sometimes, look at small face of daughter's powder group, I will have one kind in a trance of, the thing that has happened during these years, like a dream. He Wen only has a thin shade left in my heart, but Wang Lei becomes my heaviest regret. It is superficial that I only hate one's own that year one.
At one night in May of this year, my mobile phone rang, a familiar sound spreads: "Yu Xiu, it is me, Wang Lei! " My tears gush out, hands can't help trembling too.
"Yu Xiu, I am just in Wuhan, is that all right to see you? " I have refused instinctively, then will hang up soon, he says eagerly: "Beautiful, I just hear of your thing "I interrupt him and say: "Whether you feel I am specially pitiful, suffer from one's own action in other words? " He says at once: "No, in the past I am not self-confident, thought you could go to U.S.A. to live happy day, I do not allow you to leave me again now. " My tears have welled up, but I say: "I have not already been I of that year, I have a daughter ""I see, I do not mind! " I nearly say screaming: "I mind, I do not want not to lift the head in front of you forever, owe your feeling forever! " I have hung up after finishing saying.
Wang Lei has been dialing my telephone, but I am determined not connected.
A few days later, father calls to say, a silly boy goes to the family to seek a marriage alliance, saying must marry me, otherwise go under station of downstairs of my home forever.
I saw Wang Lei at last. He is much riper. He catches my hands tightly once seeing me, deep trembling is spread all over the whole body of me rapidly for a moment. I see, this is my favourite.
On July 24, we got married. He says he wants to hold tight me quickly.
Talk about this, Yu Xiu's happy tears have flowed out. I bless her repeatedly.
About in where horbor question, we have discussed. During these years, he has developed very well in Beijing, but for not allowing me to resume, he plans to come to Wuhan to develop. I am unwilling he dies for me. To be frank, having gone through so many things, the dream of Beijing has already been become dull fanatically in my heart. I knew at last where life was unimportant, where is the love, where is home. ( personages are an assumed name in the article)
Don't lose oneself in vanity
I believe, it is the the blessing one to come down in life, however, during the life later on, but people will lose one's own happiness because of some this or that factors. Hinder the woman from obtaining it in the happy factor, vanity is the most important one.
You want to be very rich, you think life is very comfortable, you want to go to flourishing world, all these give no cause for much criticism, however, if without love, do these things really equate with happily? I think Yu Xiu's story-telling session lets us receive some enlightenment.
Happy and actually very simple, just like Yu Xiu said, where is the love, where is it. Don't lose being happy in vanity.


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